At a lost ....

 

Wow!  I can not believe it's been almost 8 months since I've posted! Times sure does fly by!  Since we last spoke, my life has been a whirlwind, to say the least.  

 

A quick sum.....

• January 2012 - I had to quit Jenny due to our finances.  Sadly, my eating went straight down the drain. 

• February 2, 2012 - I lost my birth mother suddenly due to Complications from COPD as well as Chronic Alcohol and Drug Abuse.  It had barely been a year we had been reunited.  She was on her 3rd year of sobriety.  I had no idea she was as sick as she was.  She lived in SC and I'm here in New Orleans so it was quite easy for her to pretend everything was fine over the phone. Also, as far as we know, she had no burial or life insurance.  So, seeing as I am her only child and she was no longer married, my husband and I had to bear the entire cost of her services.  It also didn't make it easier that her estranged boyfriend and extended family were fighting me for her cremains.  Stress doesn't even start to describe what I went through.  It is only by the grace of God that I've made it to this point. 

• February 14, 2012 - My mother is finally cremated (as per her request) ..... and it just so happens to be Valentine's Day.  

• February 17, 2012 - my baby girl turned 18 years old. Bittersweet is the only way I can think to describe it.

• February 27, 2012 -I finally have my mother's cremains home where she belongs.  I was so worried we would not get them before we left for vacation; which we tried to cancel, but would have lost every penny we had worked so hard to save to pay for this get-a-way.  So, after much thought and prayer, we realized a vacation was exactly what we needed after all the stress we had been under. 

• February 29, 2012 - after just 39 days, we closed on our very first home!  Complete shock to all of us!  Never expected it to go so quickly nor so smoothly!  Finally something positive!  : ))

•  March 05, 2012 - we left on our first cruise to Mexico! Right in the middle of moving!  Crazy, I know!  lol   

• March 20, 2012 - right as we're settling into our new home, our daughter temporarily loses her mind.  She moved out and went almost 2 months without speaking to us.  Thankfully, she came to her senses and things are back to normal now.  They tell me all teenagers go through this, but we were so ill prepared.  She hadn't given us a clue none.  Wonderful child!  Always mild mannered and very respectable.  Then, she turned 18 and went bananas!  My husband and I both thank God, we only have to go through this once!

• May 2012 - By this time, I had endured 5 different stomach attacks in the previous months.  Wasn't sure what was going on.  Finally went to the doctor and come to find out, I have a stomach ulcer which is bleeding.  My doctor seems to think it was caused from the meds I was on after my car accident last September along with the combination of all the stress I have been under since.  

• June 2012 - Tested positive for a bacterial infection in my stomach which they believe I contracted while in Mexico!  And of course, it's agitating my ulcer!  Fun, fun!  NOT! 

And these are just the major things that have happened since the beginning of the year.  If I proceeded to list all of the minor things as well, I would end up with a novel!  lol

 

Soooo, as you can see, it is a miracle that I have not ended up in a mental institution yet!!!  And yes, I did say, YET!  lol  I did, however, finally agree to allow my doctor to prescribe me anxiety/depression meds.  And thankfully, they are working wonders!  And with no negative side effects either!  : ))  My only regret is that I didn't agree to try them a lot sooner. But I guess, better late than never!!

As of today, I am happy to say, things have settled down in the last few weeks.  I'm praying they continue.  My new focus is on myself.  I really wanna lose weight - once and for all.  I don't wanna crash diet or anything like that.  There are so many new pills, shakes, drinks, etc on the market these days that would make it a lot easier.  Instead, I wanna go the old fashion route - proper diet and eventually exercise.  I really want this to be a lifestyle change for me because I know that's the only way I will stick with it long term.  I also believe my blogging will help as well.  And now that I'm back working nights, with lots of free time, I have no excuse!!!